It's not easy

There is a Facebook Group out right now going around spreading vicious lies. They claim to be Christian and started these lies on Palm Sunday. These lies affect me deeply, and even though they are not true, I have faced criticism because of it. You may be asking yourself, what am I talking about, and how can something not true cause you pain. I am talking about something that causes a mommy war. Something, that some people judge your womanhood on. How you give birth.

This group is saying that C-section moms took the easy way out. They don't care about their babies and CPS should take their babies away. They are saying that if you had an emergency C-section, then you went against God's plan to call you home and when you do die will be tossed into the burning fires of hell.

While they are radical with their views and extremely hateful (I didn't share and will not share their hate talk) there are those who think that a C-section means that you did not give birth. They say your baby was extracted from your body. You never went through labor and or what it is like to push a baby out of your body. Your baby had drugs in it's system since before it was a born, what kind of mother are you?

Yes, I have come across all of that and more. Each time, I  pray that God gives me strength to turn the other cheek and be charitable in my response. To help that person understand that we shouldn't judge or condemn others.

It is not easy, but I do it. Just like my labor was not easy. My water broke too early. I tried my best to labor naturally. I went 56+ hours before I had a placental abruption. My son's heart rate was dropping and I was losing blood was too fast.  Had my doctors waited even an hour longer to "extract" my son, both of us would not be here today. And well, maybe one can say God was calling us home, but I believe that when God calls you home, there is nothing that can be done. No amount of medical intervention will work, because God is all powerful. I believe that God gave us the knowledge and science of doctors to help us. To help find cures for things that are horrible, to make sure that more babies get a chance to live. God gave us free choice. Jesus died for us so that we can live, not only on earth but when we die as well. I believe God gives us things to challenge us, test us and all around give us the strength for something more difficult to come along.

I know that God was watching me and my son that day, and I know that it was not an easy day. It was not an easy day for my peanut, and it was not an easy day for my husband. I am not going to lie, I did have problems overcoming the fact that I had a c-section. I was upset that my body failed me. But, I wear my scar with pride, knowing that I have a battle wound from having to fight for my son.  That being said, I am still a mom, I am still a woman, I just gave birth a different way.


Caio,